The day has finally arrived and I check out of the spa tomorrow at 12. I will be taking the prayers of some of the warriors who have left and some of the the new ones that have arrived. I have collected their contact information to follow up on their healing journey. Even through their own struggles, they are still so kind and supportive!
There is some trepidation on returning home, but I have left that to God… all I can focus on is just moving forward from one day to the next, in expectation that my healing is a work in progress. I am reminded how often I let uncertainty drive my emotions, but this journey is being expressed in faith that I found difficult before the diagnosis. I think it’s because I had lost trust in His word. Things have not panned out for me over the last 3 years. However, when I look back I can see where my attitudes skewed how I viewed new opportunities to grow. Holding on to the past, not letting go. It wasn’t God, it was me. I told you this is a mental journey of healing, but it also a spiritual journey of healing. Something I will be making into a top priority is to strengthen my trust and faith in God. Relying on something greater, accepting the help of others, and to let go of my stubborn need to only be dependent upon myself. We are not meant to live apart and our strength comes from our collective faith. Your prayers and love for me, and the warriors I have met, have strengthened me. I am so very grateful.
I am taking large quantities of narcotics across the boarder again so wish me luck. Those items I listed in yesterday's blog cannot be purchased in the U.S. Which is surprising since they have been proven effective. Makes you wonder why? These are all for the next 3 months of my recovery. I think I will simply call it Phase 2. I know, not very creative, but it will be a slow process and will end when I return for my 3 month follow up visit. Since I will not be doing any of the treatments during my follow up, I may go to the Cancun center and squeeze in a couple of dives before I leave. Besides, I can pretend I am in a very big hyperbaric chamber with a much better view.
Tomorrow will be a long day of travel, so I don’t think I will be writing a blog, but I do want to leave on a positive note of how much your prayers and love have meant to me. This healing is just getting started and I think I will continue to blog over the next 3 months with the comments being turned on.
I am so grateful to my nurses...Jose & Heri. Their support, encouragement and laughter made my days bearable. Whenever I sit down to eat, I will have Heri's words in my mind...You need to eat my friend!
If you want to know if I made the right choice in this alternative course of treatment...I did!